So,

So, 

I won't be seeing Jelly for 2 weeks. She's busy and, well, I've got PMR. 

I feel like I'm sitting on a skateboard just rolling casually. I'm heading, rolling towards the end of the year. I'm going to pass by my evaluation exam, PMR, the one they're expecting everyone to get straight A's for. Drawing, playing piano and playing Facebook games will be on the skateboard too. And watching movies everyday and playing with my camera. I'm just gonna pass through PMR like it's any other sideline event. A few people are shuffling around me, trying to make me see that I've got to get off my skateboard for 2 weeks. Trying to make me drill in exam mode. Big event mode. But they're just shufflers. Some of the shufflers aren't even trying anymore. They know it's easy, the exam. 

I believe it's easy too. But probably not easy for me. Not to get straight A's, I mean. I think it's pretty easy to get five of the  eight subjects on my belt. Really, it is. The ones I haven't got on are the ones I really haven't got any sense for. I don't feel it. I don't feel the rush, the importance. I haven't any joy to learn them. 

'You don't have to get the 'joy' of learning', they say. 'No one likes learning these subjects.', they say. 'You've just got to do it.' , they say.

Well I say different. The five subjects and the other three are different. I feel excited doing  drills on the 5 subjects. Well, 3 only, actually. Science, a good subject but horrid in school, is actually a pain in the arse and English is just too simple and it's starting to get boring. Reading a book about lead and hydrogen was more exciting than reading a science textbook. ( The way they make lead bullet 'shots' were awesome. ) Math, Geography and KH is actually fun to do in class. It's not really a feeling of excitement at learning things, it's just that I feel all competitive and eager in doing the exercises, you see? Frankly, the questions just repeat over and over again. 

The other shitty subjects, on the other hand, I feel, really, just, makes, no, sense! Malay is super confusing and their words sound harsh and not at all beautiful. Agama is senselessly boring and in no way am I going to memorise the whole lot of senseless information. History, is, ehh, complicated. 

Yawn. Goodnight.