You're Cute, Wanna Go Out?

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You're cute, wanna go out?


Words I imagine saying to that boy two desks behind me. Words I could only imagine. I'm sure the words will stay in my mind, never coming out. There's never a door for those words, not even a window. It's just in it's own world. Floating in my head, in it's own barriers. 


Wanna hear my excuse? 


Here it is : 

1. I'm too young. 
2. If I can't love my self fully, how do I love someone else?
3. I don't know how to date. I've never been on one, and outings with my girlfriends at malls always had boring silences. They always turn out the same. Watch a movie. Walk around and around the mall ( Usually in silence.) Eat. Maybe. Go home. 
4. I'm socially awkward. As you can see in number 3. 
5. I feel like his response will be awkward. He's malay. The majority of Malay boys  don't speak English well and would react to sudden weirdness with an 'ummmm' an a 'apa?' ( 'whaaaat?' )
6. Now I just feel like, maybe I don't want to. 

No really, i'm too young!